January 6, 2010

As today goes on, and people continue to contact me for updates, I am remembering more about yesterday’s appointment. But first, a funny story:

Yesterday morning Sus and I got up and got ready for the day. We knew I had an appointment at 11 and were planning to leave at 10 to allow plenty of time for us to drive somewhere we’d never been, in a car we’d never driven, on roads we weren’t familiar with. At some point during the morning Lisa posed a question about some detail of my appointment for which I did not have an answer. I pulled out my paperwork only to realize I had my appointment time completely wrong! And, the paperwork I’d told Lisa I’d completed was blank. Totally blank.

Have I lost my mind and/or my memory?

In all seriousness, Lisa and Scott have been exceptionally generous and accommodating, even letting use Lisa’s Pathfinder. What a blessing.  I am comfortable here and sometimes find myself feeling like I’m on a very-calming vacation… and then I remember my medicine (and how I don’t feel “different”), and the dizzies that don’t go away, and the who knows how many more appointments I’ll have up in North Phoenix, and the gigantic medical bill I will inevitably face when I get home.

But mostly, I know I needed this.  I needed to make getting better well my #1 and only priority for a while.  At home I struggle with feeling guilty for letting people down, ignoring my responsibilities, and putting my health first.  Here, I feel like a patient who gets to stay at the perfect hotel.  Loved ones.  Puppies.  Perfect weather.  And citrus trees.

Speaking of puppies, today we fed them food.  It was a messy endeavor, but we loved it.  My mother-in-law sure takes good care of these babies.